{"id":6057,"date":"2012-03-23T17:07:57","date_gmt":"2012-03-23T17:07:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thelondonlook.com\/?p=6057"},"modified":"2018-01-31T11:41:15","modified_gmt":"2018-01-31T11:41:15","slug":"confessions-of-a-stripper-chapter-7-cheating-pt2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thelondonlook.com\/culture\/confessions-of-a-stripper\/confessions-of-a-stripper-chapter-7-cheating-pt2\/","title":{"rendered":"CONFESSIONS OF A STRIPPER CHAPTER 7-CHEATING PT2"},"content":{"rendered":"

He\u2019s breathing heavily and trying to rub my thigh. Where has the na\u00efve Paul I knew and loved for two hours gone?<\/p>\n

The hour passes and he\u2019s keen to buy another. I’m a bit bored but there’s only so many toilet breaks I can take without him thinking I\u2019m either pregnant or have cystitis. Neither of which are good.<\/p>\n

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Halfway through the second hour, Paul\u2019s hands are getting friendly with my legs again. I sit next to him, maybe we can have a lovely chat again, I\u2019ll even listen to his golfing stories.<\/p>\n

He gets closer to me and his fingers wander round my waist.<\/p>\n

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\u2018Why don\u2019t we continue this at a hotel?\u2019<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

I slap his wrists. I\u2019m not a prostitute.<\/p>\n

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\u2018Lottie, I\u2019m sorry, I\u2019m getting too excited\u2019.<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u2018It\u2019s okay, just respect the rules.\u2019<\/p>\n

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His face changes,<\/p>\n

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\u2018you\u2019re so right Lottie. What am I doing here? I didn\u2019t even want to be here, get a dance, and now I\u2019m asking a girl young enough to be my daughter for sex. I\u2019m sorry, please don\u2019t think bad of me it\u2019s just\u2026\u2019<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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He\u2019s back to the Paul who I met when he first came in the club – the shy type of man who didn\u2019t want to see a naked girl as he felt so bad on his wife at home. Was it the alcohol that changed him, or just simple that the tits got him horny? Not all men who come to strip clubs turn into raging animals. We don\u2019t put a spell on customers to make them fancy us. Some just don\u2019t.<\/p>\n

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So what made him change, and more importantly, why is feeling guilty again?<\/p>\n

He gets upset, his eyes are welling up and I\u2019m not sure how to react.<\/p>\n

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\u2018Lottie, I didn\u2019t want to come in here as my wife\u2019s at home. I got carried away, I\u2019m so sorry \u2013 I haven\u2019t had sex over a year and being here got me\u2026well you know\u2026horny\u2019.<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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He hasn\u2019t been intimate with his wife for over a year, is that normal or is it just marriage?<\/p>\n

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\u2018My wife you see, she has terminal cancer. She hasn\u2019t got out of bed in weeks’.<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Shit.<\/p>\n

Seriously, shit.<\/p>\n

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\u2018She\u2019s so ill and I\u2019ve been unsatisfied, obviously. I\u2019m her sole carer so there\u2019s lots of pressure on me. Jesus, I feel so ashamed for saying it\u2019.<\/h3>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Holy shit.<\/p>\n

So that’s why he was so concerned about his wife calling him.<\/p>\n

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I can’t help feeling sorry for him; it must be hard knowing his wife is dying. But hang on a minute, Susan’s at home, facing her future death whilst Paul’s offering to pay me for sex.<\/p>\n

That’s truly fucked up.\u00a0 Is the fact as he’s asking for sex as bad as if he went through with it?<\/p>\n

Does have an ill wife make it worse or give you a free pass?<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not sure, but either way I guilty myself. Poor Susan.<\/p>\n

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What do I say?<\/p>\n

No one prepares you for the terminally ill wife scenario of lap dancing. It should be mentioned in the contract.<\/p>\n

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I switch to work mode, we\u2019ve been in VIP longer than he\u2019s paid for. Now is not the right time to ask him if he wants to stay.<\/p>\n

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He tells me he\u2019s going to leave the club, go home and be with his wife.<\/p>\n

I go out for a cigarette and spend 20 minutes calming down; I can’t help thinking about poor Susan.<\/p>\n

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I compose myself and go back out on the floor.<\/p>\n

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There he is – Paul didn’t leave. He’s buying another VIP with Jessica and whispering in her ear, probably trying to get her home with him.<\/p>\n

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Is he a cheater? Is what he’s doing count as infidelity? Does his dying wife change the situation at all?<\/p>\n

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I’m not sure, all I know is he’s a dickhead.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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